It has been about 5 months since my last post

I had one of my former students stop in today to see me to remind me to update my blog. Turns out he found it and has been reading, so Steve this ones for you. I was quite busy this summer with the kids and soccer, it was over in a flash and a new school year began. This will be the last year that i will be the Middletown South soccer coach. It is sad to even put it into print because so much of my identity at school has been wrapped up in soccer. So much of my life has been soccer, so to break off this huge piece is actually going to be quite difficult. I am still going to coach my kids and do some training but it will not be the same. Change is hard but necessary. I think we all would like to stay where we are because it is comfortable, it is what we know, I know my former student would like to rewind back, if only for a moment to that comfortable place we call HS. I had my 20 year reunion last weekend and boy was it fun. Seeing everyone after 20 years made me think back to how much fun I had in HS, when there was no responsibility and life was carefree. I think we all felt that way. So one may wonder, why am I dreading giving up the team.. I guess I have finally admitted to myslef that I just can't do it all. I can't do something and not do it well, so I have bitten off way more thank i can chew and coaching the HS team is getting in the way of my being a good parent. So I have to end it. My last home game is Thursday and I know the seniors and their parents will be crying as it will be the last time they wear the Blue and gray. AS for me, I still cant imagine being introduced at school as just a teacher. I was Coach K and now I am coach Haar for the next couple weeks. Soon there will be a new generation of students that only know me as the Psychology teacher. I guess I am losing part of my identity and it scares me. It scares me because it signifies that i am getting older, and I am.. I will be 39 in a few months. I feel as though i am invincible and can still conquer every task so why am I breaking off the piece of me, for my kids, I do not want to miss their sporting events or music lessons or whatever else they do. My schedule is at the will of the AD, someone I cant control, who can change my game time on a Saturday from 10:00 am to 2pm on a moments notice, not knowing or caring that I have 12 little boys that are counting on me to coach them at 2pm. So I guess I am ready for the new me. MOM, and teacher and I guess that is enough even for an egomanic like myself. I would rather do 2 things excellent that 3 very good. So that is it for now, I will try to update more frequently especially after our last home game on thursday